I am very tired Pixelated Space. I very nearly went on a rampage, trying to scrape some money together and get gear gathered to go to a camping trip. I needed to just be Away. Away from people, away from all the drama, to not have to think, to just Be without having to be constantly vigil. To be around people I knew and liked, people who don’t judge me, who have never done anything but good by me. Maybe it’s just that our time together was generally short, but I honestly don’t care.

Everyone said No. Don’t do this. It will be bad. No matter what I told them, I got the same answers. I tried to explain how badly I just needed to be Away for a little while, and no one would listen. It made me so angry.. Like buzzards around carrion, they circled closer and closer until I couldn’t stand against it and gave in. I gave in to the point where I thought they were right. I’m some fucked up mental patient, what the hell was i thinking of trying to have some fun?! Some actual peace?! Oh, you were an idiot from the start to think that was even possible. So now I sit here, and their words circle around inside my head.. I feel so alone and so very trapped.